You will never know

You will never be able to break this wall
You will never be able to undo that moment
That just managed to define your interest

You will never imagine the pain
You will never feel my ordeal
 And the reason why I still live in my shell 


And since you will never feel my loss
You will never know that behind those smiles
There are countless sleepless teary nights.

© Written by Garima Mahajan

....and then I paused

Today is one of those rare, very rare days when I do not care about if the maid has come or not (considering she did not come yesterday as well!), if the cushions are kept properly, if the kitchen tiles are clean or not, the clothes are washed or not.

Yes it might sound like I am lazying around. But no, that is not really the case. I was occupied with my thoughts. I wanted to pause life for a while and take stock of life.


I thought of people who were initially a substantial part of my life but are not there anymore.
I thought of people who left and came back.
I thought of people who were most important to me but who left me as their priorities were different.
I thought of people who I considered unimportant but with time they became a significant part of me.
I thought of people who made me cry and betrayed me.
I thought of people who made me laugh like mad.
I thought of people who never left me despite adversities.
I thought of people who changed me and made me what I am today.

So yes, today was a very productive day. Just that the outcome can not be defined in quantity. It can only be experienced. And I really believe sometimes it important to pause what you are doing and take stock of your life (even if it going absolutely fine). All it needs is sometime alone- with yourself.

It worked wonders for me today. It can be wonderful for you too!

© Written by Garima Mahajan